My husband told me I hit a milestone today, as I handed him a grocery list with a plan for our meals this week.  

A milestone?  What?

“You’re looking at cookbooks again.  Planning meals.  Cooking.  You haven’t done that in over a year!”

…It’s true.  At the beginning of my pregnancy, the morning sickness provided a state of constant nausea.  I couldn’t stand the thought of veggies or meat.  And that mostly continued the rest of the 9 months.  Then, after I had the baby – I still didn’t want veggies, or much meat.  All I wanted was food that was quick to grab and easy to eat while holding the baby with one arm.  Granola bars.  Pop tarts.  Bananas.  Protein shakes.  

Horrible.  I know.

I used to make my own bread, can my own jams and salsas – heck I even made homemade puddings for a while!

It’s been quite the ride…

But yes.  I’ve started returning to my healthier ways.  This week alone, I can’t even comprehend how many veggies I have eaten (tomatoes, lettuce, cucumbers, bok choy, carrots, bell peppers, avocado, sweet potatoes, broccoli!)!  Success!  

And as I write, the hubby is out grocery shopping – a list that consists of mostly produce.  And yes, I guess it is a milestone.

We’ll be making recipes this week out of Jamie Oliver’s “Meals in Minutes” cookbook – and I can’t wait!  (The book was given to me as a Valentine’s gift in February…  And I’m just planning my first attempt!)

Funny what things can become a big deal.  I’m eating veggies.  Planning meals.  Cooking.  (AND the house is clean again.  I’ve started projects around our home.  I’m blogging.)  

It feels good to be “me” again.

Thanks for noticing, Honey!

What milestones are you crossing these days?


Do You Like You?

What a great video – and perfect timing for me to see it!  This new stay-at-home-mama gig has me rediscovering priorities and what self-esteem feels like…  It’s interesting when you spend an entire day at home (and it’s not just a vacation, lazy day kind of thing) – what do you do?  wear?  make-up or no?  blow dry and curl the hair or not?  And if I choose not to do these things…  Can I walk past a mirror and not cringe?!

Or will I just feel ugly and lazy…?

It’s a weird thing…  Even when we’re by ourself, do we let society’s notion of beauty decide for us?  Or do we notice new things about ourselves?  Find new strengths?  See ourselves as “more than?”

This is really only the first full week I’ve been home with the kid since my last day of work, 3 weeks ago, and I’ve kind of decided if I’m not going anywhere why bother?  I get dressed in comfy clothes and skip the hair and make-up.  It’s so liberating!  Ha ha ha.  And then I walk past a mirror…  And see new things.

I see a mama.  And I see the beautiful little boy attached to my hip, smiling at our reflection.  I see that my laugh lines are getting deeper since he joined our little family.  I see the smile that lights up my face as his chubby hands grab my cheeks.  I see my hair, frizzy and huge – and know it fills his big eyes with wonder when my hair escapes from the pony tail.  I see my forehead, beginning to wrinkle from learning and concentrating on this thing called parenting….


It may not be beautiful to Hollywood, or fashion magazines, or those who crave perfection.  But honestly, I feel pretty beautiful most days in this role called Mom.  I didn’t know what I was missing before this little man entered my life.  And now, I feel more whole than I ever have before.

Do you like you?  What does it mean to fully embrace who we are and our own unique beauty?  What does it take to let the world’s perception of beauty fall away and simply appreciate our bodies and spirits for what they are?

Tomorrow, I’m once again beginning a new weight loss journey (“once again” because I got side-tracked with my pregnancy!).  Am I doing it to be skinny and gorgeous?  No.  (But I’m ok with that side-effect.)  I’m doing it to regain a healthy body and spirit – that can be up to new adventures and possibilities.  I want a life of trying new things and chasing after my son.  I want to go on grand journeys with my husband and discover new places.  I want my mind to be sharp and my eyes to be bright.  I want to be healthy so I can serve the world in bigger and bolder ways…  Sharing God’s love.

I believe God made us – each one – to be unique and beautiful.  And for me…  I need to take a few moments each day and claim that.  Look in the mirror.  Stare at the reflection with no make-up, no hairdo, no photoshop…  Find one thing to love.  Every day.  A new challenge to myself – and maybe to you?

Do you like you?  I hope so…!

Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
you formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking!
Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know me inside and out,
you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
before I’d even lived one day.  –Psalm 139:13-16